This Conundrum We Call Love

My parents don't love each other.  It affects my life. Everyday I come home to a household of not even friends. My parents treat each other like roommates. Their marriage was just out of "this is something I just gotta do". If my parents had the love of a love marriage, I think my life would even be different. My mom seems to always just be okay or sad. I haven't seen my mom happy in maybe 3 years, when my sister graduated. I can obviously give my love but that's not enough. They fight/come to a strong disagreement at least twice a week.Every moment they share results in a negative remark from one side to the other. Worst of all, there's nothing I can do about it. I feel that one day I'm going to be the one telling my dad about love when it should be the other way around. (Copy/paste from other post) My parents have never hugged in front of me. I've seen them hold hands once, January 2012, near the Madamme Tussauds Wax Museum, while we were walking towards it. It was Christmas season this year and my sister kept putting on movies from the Hallmark Channel and I told her to stop because as far as I know, love doesn't exist. I've only seen it in movies and TV shows. (End of copy/paste from other post) I openly post this link of my blog to my Facebook hoping that my parents see this. My mom is sick and my dad doesn't even offer to take her to the doctor, get out medicine, hug her,  not even give her a high five. I have to force it upon him. "Papa was saying that he'll take you to the doctor." "Papa says he'll go buy medicine if we don't have it." When really he couldn't even tell she was sick and when I told him she was, he goes to her and makes a negative remark on how she's but accepting being sick so he doesn't need to take her to the doctor. And if he "tried to force her he would be in so much trouble." This is my experience with the conundrum we call love.

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