8/5

So I woke up expecting a great day because my mom was coming home. She had been in India for 2 weeks although it didn't really feel like it. In the morning I was the first one ready send my dad told me to take the car for a car wash but we decided to go on the way to the freeway. When we got there we saw a lot of traffic so we didn't go, although if my sister was ready quicker we could have gone. I drove to the airport got a lot of s*** for a quote & quote abrupt lane change. Sometimes I feel that my parents are always pushing their opinions and thoughts on to me or in to me rather. I kept getting drilled for this lane change. I finally reach the airport and I said we could just pull over at the terminal but I didn't go to the right lane so I had to go to parking. We were looking for parking when we found someone pulling out, they were taking a long time so I went ahead and my dad yelled at me so much over a f****** parking. You kept telling me how it showed respect or some bullshit. Always trying to stay in a position of power and not friendly. That is where he messes up. That is where I can make myself a better dad , a much better dad. So anyway we were waiting behind another person pulling out and they were taking too long as well. My dad says look God is showing you that you should have listened to me. I hate the things he says sometimes. They were literally blocking the parking after reversing, I honked, they moved, and we finally parked. We go out to the terminal looking for my mom and looked outside to make sure she hadn't already gone out and then waited where people or rather people from arrivals come from.  I was very happy to see her, I kind of missed her. We get in the car to go home and because my sister had said earlier to let dad drive on the way back, which really pissed me off by the way, I had thrown him the keys. On the way back somehow we end up on the topic of the next car. My dad tells my mom the whole story from Saturday night and she agrees with him, saying he shouldn't buy me the car now. Which really pisses me off because I've worked hard to sell that car and not only that, I also sold it with the notion that I would be getting another car. I felt very played he started yelling and told them to not talk about this now. It was saddening to already be arguing on the way back from the airport after just having picked up my mom. When we finally got home I didn't want to eat the piece of s*** lunch that my aunt made. Which by the way was drilled into my head by my mom. Actually I had planned to make food for and with my mom after we go home but I was very disheartened by the car situation and the fact that my grandma was boiling rice and taking up a lot of space in front of the stove even though we told her not to make anything. Hungry however, I took out some of the rice I had made and warmed it up to eat with the curry my aunt made. I sat on the table , extremely pissed off still, got up and left. I went to my room and flopped onto the bed. I hate naps but I fell asleep amidst thought. I ended up waking up at 44 did not feel much better. Extremely infuriated hi kept to myself because we had guests over and when they left talked to my mom about taking the current car tomorrow hiking with joseph his girlfriend and chicks. She said I wouldn't get the car in a very rude way which prompted me to yell and say then leave me alone and not come into my room. After which I blasted random music and then play bad company 2. The end of the night we had a long car discussion and they just find me a responsible and all this s*** but they're so stuck in their Indian thought they have no idea that I have friends girls in fact going out staying out past 11 but to my parents it's all about the law and the legality, maybe they should have been lawyers instead of me. Ivan came back to my room and kitten was saying f*** and I really want a punching bag. Hit my bed a couple times out of anger then breathed slowly calm down. I brush my teeth and then started walking to get water inserted talking aloud to myself saying but it's always Ben my parents limiting me etcetera.and then played 2k14 or something and then here I am.