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New Years' Eve. I just recorded. Ain't Got No Bitches, Bugs, and Anze Kopitar. Going out with A now. peace and Happy New Years. I was really down to throw a kickback. but everyone I know went to Countdown or is working or is with family. Glad this came thru

Life is actually easy without my parents! Yesterday, as soon as I woke up, at 2:30, I saw a text from M saying wyd. I texted him, got ready, and M came again with his friends. So did F, and eventually F and I went to PizzaRev then brought his friends, so I basically had a kickback unintentionally 😂 It was a lot of fun though, smoked in the living room and my room. Shit was awesome! I slept late though, used my VR til almost 4 Then, woke up at 11, wrote a little, napped from 2-4, then played Overwatch and wrote another song!

We dropped them at the airport on Christmas day! Meaning 2 days ago, it's the 27th. We went to Bua's (my aunt's). It wasn't bad, I played 2K with my cousins. Lost so bad. Came home at like 2:15, didn't sleep till like 3. Yesterday, I finished I Could Give A Fuck and M came over to smoke with his friends. Chill. Today, we did groceries, after I stayed up so late on my computer.  Wrote a lot of music today. I had smoked on my own out the apple. 

Yesterday I smoked so god damn much. Like an eighth. Then i quit

April 4th monday hung out with Gaurav, Aman, and Bobby... The whole day! April 5th got my rec, smoked with catharine April 6th smoked that J on that patio April 7th smoked with daze April 8th smoked and dabbed with Joseph and watched catch me if you can Saturday, I finally didn't blaze lol April 10th, smoked with Joseph April 11th, kicked it with the Indians, popped an edible before... Didn't even hit. Smoked the shop J after kicking it with them lol. April 12th, picked up for daze... April 13th, kicked it with Joseph, smoked out the bong, dabbed, rolled a J... Finished the movie. April 14th, smoked with bmc and divesh Why are all these days identified by a smoke sesh. I must have done nothing else significant or memorable.

Yo, I dropped out of UCLA on 2/16. I feel like I haven't done much since then. I have and I haven't. Here are my efforts to keep tabs. 3/14 I woke up at 5, put up music videos. 3/15 I spent the whole day playing video games, just like I planned. Great stress relief. 3/16 Lenette came over, we worked on her and Zoey's shit. 3/17 Promotion and video games 3/18 I went out with BMC and we smoked hella. Hit the view. Came home, ate dinner, watched The Big Lebowski Why am I keeping these tabs? Why do I obsess over time...no idea I got sick on 3/7. The same day my dad and I played some Skyward Sword. I smoked with Frankie...I got sick and everything after was history. I felt pretty depressed along with it. I slept like 12 hours everyday...

In the past, I've used this blog as a diary, even when my days weren't cool because I valued knowing what I did. This winter break, I don't really know much of what I did. Does that matter? We are so in the moment, does it matter what occurred at every point in time? I can logically say, no, it doesn't matter, but keeping tabs is almost useful to like reiterate or know what happened. just spent an hour going through blog posts....maybe now i'll do the paper?

I sit here, at 5:14AM on 1/14 with less than 50 words on my paper due at 2pm. I've sat around attempting to begin work on it since 10PM(wow I'm inconsistent with AM/PM capitalization). I probably put the first words on it at 2 or 3am. I really don't give a shit about this. It's such a weird feeling....writing a paper...an amalgamation of words to prove I know some shit for a class. To be judged by a letter and that this letter somehow contributes to the overall purpose and abilities of my life. I'm gladly writing/typing this blog spot to procrastinate...I can freely write, that isn't the problem...it's just the topic and the format. A formal paper where I am constantly judged is odd....I should just drop out tomorrow. Fuck this. At best, class will take me to a 9-5...even if it pays 100k, I don't want a 9-5. You reading this are probably going to do exactly this because you are a part of the system. We are  the system. Fuck off. Fuck this world. Fuck ev...