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I've grown up in a family with no confidence. My mom was never confident and so obviously, my sister wasn't and thus I wasn't. I try hard to impress my parents. To feel that they are proud to have me and that I am meaningful to them. It feels like nothing but straight A's fulfills this hunger of theirs to feel pride in their son. I've learned so much about computers yet somehow, my parents are never impressed. Growing up, I thought what I knew was just normal, everyone in my generation must know it. In high school I learned that that's not true, my friend was somewhat impressed. Another person I met in Spanish class, was so impressed with what i knew and I felt great about it. I felt that what I know and spend alot of my childhood doing actually amounts to something. Recently, my sister hung out with her friend from high school after two years and she came home with a huge smile saying, "She was so happy to see me, I've never felt so wanted!" And t...