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I've grown up in a family with no confidence. My mom was never confident and so obviously, my sister wasn't and thus I wasn't. I try hard to impress my parents. To feel that they are proud to have me and that I am meaningful to them. It feels like nothing but straight A's fulfills this hunger of theirs to feel pride in their son. I've learned so much about computers yet somehow, my parents are never impressed. Growing up, I thought what I knew was just normal, everyone in my generation must know it. In high school I learned that that's not true, my friend was somewhat impressed. Another person I met in Spanish class, was so impressed with what i knew and I felt great about it. I felt that what I know and spend alot of my childhood doing actually amounts to something. Recently, my sister hung out with her friend from high school after two years and she came home with a huge smile saying, "She was so happy to see me, I've never felt so wanted!" And t...

my cousins, my family, and these relatives over from india are on the way to wine country and solvang. we stop at santa barbara which was cute but boring. when we finally get to wine country 5 people took the course of tasting. i had some. it was utter shit. the next place my dad dropped out but the other 4 drank. buzzed cousins are hilarious. anyway when we finally got to solvang we parked and walked down. and there was this shop. that i might never forget..."ingleborg's". we step in and a few order chais. there was a spiced and vanilla so my cousins has some and says t something along the lines of "this is heaven in a drink. wanna try some?" and those were the last words I heard in that boring stage of life. I say sure expecting some shit chai that only coffee drinkers would like (sorry vanillabh it was before I drank you <3).. the second that drink touched my taste buds, life changed. I wasn't just akash but the akash who had vanilla chai. ...

my cousins are awesome its ankur, 25, and ankit, 30. they took us to mission impossible 4 last night at like 11pm in imax! it was the most spontaneous thing but extremely fun and they covered the cost, which was 18.50 per person...came out to alot. but its not the cost that matters. its the gesture. and i really cant wait to make money and be able to afford that i havent seen ankit in 5 months! and the other just got back a month ago whom i last saw in june i remember when we used to go to their house like at LEAST once every 2 weeks but ever since they left for college i havent been seeing them as much it really sucks it just makes me look forward to college a little less. i dont wanna leave my friends. i wish i could be like either one when i grow up. like, though, similar to. but with my own twist. wow i got so lucky on the blogger app on my phone it didnt say published but just saved locally but on my blog it was there.. i deleted it from the app. i went to my blog and it was act...